Ah its been awile.

I have not written in a while mostly because I have had so much going on that it would take all day to keep up to date on my posts. I am working two jobs. For once I actually like them both alot! I like the people I work with. I like the hours and I like the job itself. I am moving one week from today and I am excited for the new adventure of a new apartment. My baby is huge and learning so much. i have so much fun playing with her and watching her learn new tricks. I am starting to actually feel pregnant. Past up 13 weeks already and I have a feeling it will fly by just because I am not ready! lol But I am sure I will be ready when I have to be because that's what we do in this life. I had a professor that always said "Life is what happens while your making your plans." I also read a quote that said, " Wanna make god laugh?... Tell him your plan" I have shown myself time and time again that even though I am obsessed with planning and feeling in control. My plans NEVER work out the way I want. And most of the time its due to me changing my mind. My life is a wild ride but I don't care. So far through the hurt and pain and plans changing and not being able to make up my mind I have still managed to maintain a life that I really do enjoy even if I don't realize that every day. I love my family with all of there craziness, I love my child and child to be. I love my friends and those close to me who hurt me and help me back up. I am ok with the fact that I am not in school right now because truly I don't know what I really want to study after all this time. I love school way to much to not go back and I am certain that in the future when I am more sturdy on my feet and confident with my decisions I will choose to go back and study some thing that will lead me to a great career as my children get older. I feel really good right now. Good with my situation and my choices, good and bad ones, I feel great about my future and my family and I am happy to be living through these rough times. The hardest times are what make you truly appreciate the good ones.