Takin a Break

I have had a few days of not feeling so well and my visit to the doc revealed some blood pressure problems sooooo... I get a break from work! I had some tests done that we wont get the results for until two weeks from now so I am on FMLA for at least that long so that I can "Take it easy" as the doc said. Well March is our moving month so this came at a very convenient time :) I cant do much with out taking breaks fairly often but Moving on and off all day gets more done then Trying to squeeze chores in before heading to work. Anyways long story short... I'm takin a break!

Here comes another week!

Tonight is the end of my weekend and its back to work tomorrow. The weekend was nice home with my babies :) David and I don't have a day off together anymore :( I miss him lots but its nice that we have every morning together.
David had his interview with Fidelity on Thursday. It went well but we have yet to hear back. Some of our financial decisions in the past might keep him from getting an offer but we are keeping our fingers crossed :) It would be a really great opportunity but if he doesn't get it I am sure an even better opportunity. would come rolling around if we are patient!
We are going over to Grandma's house tomorrow morning to pick up a key so we can slowly move in over the course of the month! We are paid up through the end of March here but we will be living at grandmas to continue saving for our home starting in April!
March should be a good month! We will be moving, Maveryk will be turning ONE:), Hopefully David will start a new job and we should be getting a new car. (something with better gas millage)
Well there is my update for the week!

End of a very long weekend

I got to enjoy a five day weekend that I am now wrapping up. I lost my voice and had to take three days off in addition to my regular two day weekend. Since I really wasn't feeling ill just sounding it... I got to spend a lot of time with my babies and hubby. We got a lot done but we also spent some time together just doing nothing (which happens to be one of my favorites).

I had a nice lunch with my grandma on Friday and we discussed my family moving back in with her until we get a house. We are pretty sure we are going to take her up on that so we should be moving in about six weeks. Then today we got to go to a birthday party for my niece Caydance. It was fun but sad she was so miserably sick she just seemed like she would rather take a nap then open her presents!

I had a really rough day with Tukker today. I keep thinking more and more that I am doing something terribly wrong with her. She is so mean and violent to everyone. Sometimes I think she hates me. The hardest part for me is that no one gets to see the sweet beautiful side of her that we get to see at home at least briefly everyday. One of my fears was assured today when my Nana walked in to the party and said "Tukker give me a hug." and Tukker said "NO!" When I said "sorry she is being mean today" Nana replied "Isn't she mean everyday?" That is something I always imagined people were thinking but no one has ever actually said it to me before.
It makes me so sad. I don't want to have the 'mean' kid. The one that no one wants to babysit or let come to visit. The one that the other kids avoid... I'm sad for her and for me. I have watched My mom and Emily struggle to get along or have a relationship for years and I always think to myself how it shouldn't be that hard to fix it if you really want to but IT IS. It breaks my heart that my daughter and I don't get along and I want so bad for it to change but I just don't seem to know how to change it! I was obviously given a difficult child for a reason. I must be meant to learn something from the challenge but when am I going to learn the lesson so we can be friends? I don't want to spend the first fifteen years at each others throats then finally become friends only to have her move out a couple years later. I just feel like I am missing out on being her mom and getting to know and enjoy her. I love her so much, why doesn't it feel like she likes me?
Being honest with myself I know its not just me. She is fiesty and difficult and a bit of a bully to everyone but it is just hard that I don't have enough of a mother-child bond with her to help her be a happier child.

Challange!

Courtney text me a few days ago to catch up and during the conversation she told me that she was going to do a week long fruit cleanse to kick of her fitness and nutrition goals. I thought it sounded like fun. I am sure she has more technical reasons for doing it then I do but I just think it will be a fun short term challenge so... Starting tomorrow morning I am going to eat only fruit and vegetables for seven full days. It is gonna take me some serious willpower so wish me luck! I am also only going to drink water and fruit or vegetable juice and of course I will take my daily vitamins to help make up for the protein and grains and what not that I will be missing out on. I am just curious to see how it will make me feel. I am not planning on it making a huge difference in my weight or anything but maybe it will help me kick some of my lingering bad habits so I can continue on becoming more healthy. I work a twelve hour shift tomorrow which will suck but I am sure it will go by quickly. It is the start of my new Sunday through Thursday shift. Every Friday and Saturday off from NOW ON!!! Woo Hoo. David started working at the senior home next door this week and he really likes it. It is only part time until he finds something in the financial field. He has a interview on the 22nd for a great position at ... ah the name has escaped me lol. Ill update that later when I get my mind back!

Planning for the future

So We spoke to a mortgage loan officer today. It went really well. He said we can plan on being approves pretty easily in August which is great since that is exactly when I was hoping to start the process. He let us know the few things we need to do in order to assure we are ready by then and all of them are easily achievable now that all of our finances are straightened out and we are on track with everything. For the most part we are all ready and we just have to be patient and get to the one year mark from our bankruptcy date then we are set so until then we just have to focus on saving up for our down payment! We have a plan in place and are on our way. I am trying to find ways for us to save even more than we have planned so my first idea is to find a new living situation. I am totally ok with downgrading to a two bedroom tighter living space if it means we can save a hundred or two a month in rent to add to our savings account! Woo Hoo I am excited to finally be in the place in my life where looking for a home is actually a good idea and that we are doing it the right way by getting prepared ahead of time rather than hoping to jump in to something when we think its time. Yay for being an adult! If anyone knows of any renting options let me know! We are ok with anywhere in the valley. Utah or salt lake county. We don't care if its an apartment, house, basement, condo spare room, or attic as long as its less than 750 a month and we can squeeze into it reasonably ( keep in mind we now have very few things so we don't take up much room anymore lol.) Let me know if you spot anything worth looking into! Love ya all

Biggest looser update!

I think I updated you all that I had organized and entered into a biggest loser contest at work didn't I? Well it was ten weeks long but we are about half way through the fourth week now so we have six weeks to go! It ends on Febuary 15th and the winner gets 70 bucks :) So far I have not done great but I have consistantly lost each week. I have lost three and a half pounds so far. Now that the holiday season has come and gone I am determined and off to a good restart :) I am using a mix of Wii games and ENVY workout videos for my excersize routine and I think it is working out! Tonight I did 25 minutes of Bunz of ENVY and a five minute quick fix of Arms of ENVY. My plan is to do 30 minutes in the morn and 30 minutes at night. My overall goal outside of the contest is to reach my goal weight of 140 lb by Maveryk's first birthday. That is now a total of only 19 pounds and I have 76 days to accomplish it. THAT IS ONLY ONE POUND EVERY FOUR DAYS! Totally reachable! :) Can you tell I am feeling enthusiastic?? Kayleigh also happens to have a goal of right about 22 pounds in 79 days...Very similar goal....a little friendly competition wouldn't help would it Kay?

I AM GONNA WHOOP YOUR BOOTY BIG SISTA!!!

Every New begining comes from some other beginings end!

A brand new year! I have known that new years day has been my favorite holiday for some time now but this year is my favorite yet. The 365 days of 2009 were wonderful and scary and exciting and exhausting but now they have come and gone so we can focus on 2010! What a great year this is going to be! Every one in my life has spent the last year or two getting everything in there life back to where it should be so now every one seems prepared to finally have a great year with less stress and more smiles! Here are my new years resolutions this year:

1. Smile more and don't sweat the small stuff.

2. Appreciate how lucky I really am.

3. Take more time to help those who are not as lucky.

4. Remember to TELL people how much I care for them. They can't read my mind!

5. Take notice of all my accomplishments and dust off my downfalls as learning opportunities.

6. Have a little more fun. My babies are growing very quickly!

7. Stay on top of all the great improvements I made last year.

8. Continue to build upon my groundwork in Health, happiness and prosperity.

9. Enjoy each day individually rather than looking forward to the next day, week, month or year

10. Love like crazy! :)

My little family and I had a wonderful new years eve and new years day. We are on a great start to having the best year yet! Last year I earned a husband and a son! I'm gonna have to work hard to beat that!

Here's to 363 more days of magic!